Have you ever felt alone?
Better yet, have you ever experienced loneliness?
EsseRealis is a Latin phrase meaning “to be real, to really exist“, so let me be real for a few moments about my personal thoughts on alone and loneliness.
The other night as I was at a training event for the fire department, I was sitting by myself in a smoky house in the dark. The thought occurred to me about what it means to really be alone, the thought that automatically came to my mind was “the absence of God”.
Maybe it is because of the line of work that I am in, but I find chaplaincy work very lonely.
If I use my definition of alone meaning ‘absence of God’ with my line of work as a chaplain, then that really scares me!
As an introvert- MB type ISFJ, I appreciate alone time, I mean I long for it, however, as much as I recharge being alone, I have never been able to accept loneliness. I can not accept being absent from God, or maybe it is God being absent from me that I do not want to imagine?
I guess what I am trying to get at is that even when I am at my loneliest- Jesus, the Son of God experienced loneliness too, and maybe He still experiences loneliness every now and then when I am not totally aware of His presence in our world.
Father, please forgive me for at times not wanting to be with you or rather wanting to hide from you in order to be alone, I am afraid of my loneliness and afraid of Your absence in my life.